So a few days ago I had severe tooth pain. Like, megabad tooth pain. Couldn't sleep at all. Had taken some painkillers, nothing. Stumbled into the bathroom at 4am to just brush the fuck out of my teeth out of desperation.
Grabbed my razor by accident.
I've more or less fully healed, but I looked like a goddamn monster for a while.
Then yesterday I had what I can only classify as a fullfledged goddamn psychotic break. A mania episode mixed with a panic attack? I couldn't sit still, I couldn't form coherent thoughts, I couldn't talk, I couldn't stop crying, it was like I was piloting a machine that suddenly everything went haywire. My parents wondered why I was screaming (I don't remember screaming) and I just sort of lunged toward the stairs, figuring maybe I could GESTURE something, I ended up falling down them, then rolling around on the floor screaming because in all of this, I had massive pressure on the back of my neck/head, which was what preceded the whole thing.
So I'm on the floor, my mom's freaking out, my dad's just completely at a loss, all the animals are going crazy, and then finally I just snap and scream. I scream until I'm goddamn hoarse before managing to, I guess, simply run out of energy.
Was pretty much wiped out for the rest of the day and most of today.