Guild, look. I don't think you're a bad guy, notwithstanding your belief that you're some sort of master manipulator, your hobby of pissing people off, your harebrained ponzi schemes, and the way you make even the most straightforward of interactions feel like a prelude to being defrauded. You run a mean game of D&D, and when you aren't trying to be avant-garde you're even pretty pleasant and insightful and unique.
I feel bad that you seem to find it impossible to fit in, but you have to understand that you basically did this to yourself. patito may be right in that you need help that we can't give you, and the reason we can't give it to you is because you think you can trick and browbeat us into accepting you out of pity (I know you think you can do that because you're trying it right now).
You have to want to change yourself, not just our opinion of you.