i'm looking for a modicum of empathy
you know, that thing a whole forum of people i've always supported and loved are accusing me of not having
just a bit
I literally reached out and tried to empathize with you and your response was to give me such severe chest pains I thought I was having a heart attack.
i saved the logs of this, maybe we can talk about what happened? i don't see mafia games as being a big deal to lie, and i was trying to get you to admit you were dracula so i could find the weretiger, sorry i came across so harsh it was just me playing a game, the only arena i feel safe threatening people is in pretend land and i'm truly sorry you got upset, mostly i wanted to get you onboard with the cabal
The fact that you only see that point as the problem area, and ignore -everything else that was not the wolf game- is insulting and aggrivating.
Look, Guild. I can't tell if you're tricking me or not. None of us can.
This is a problem. As Brentai put it in a masterful way, you've cried wolf too many times. If you are genuine about your desires and protests here, then you have a very long road ahead of you to build up any modicum of trust and respect with us. You have, over the years, murdered this trust that we afford you. You have made us so skeptical and cautious about you, that nothing you say or do will ever register to us. We will
always take what you're saying as some further attempt to manipulate us to your own goals, or just to be batshit insane.
If you are genuine about this, you need to start now. Stand up and take a break for a while. A week, a month, a year. Take a moment away from us to both give us a break from this, and for you to forcefully examine yourself. You need to understand very, very hard what it is we do not like about you. You need to get past the image you've built up for yourself, that both here, and on TalkingTime, is mocked and ridiculed.
You are not a master manipulator. You are not some Godking Puppetmaster, conducting sociological experiments on a whim, able to whip the ignorant masses into a frenzy with nary a few keystrokes. You are a broken, hurt person. You are someone who needs to sit down, and consider for a moment, that the other side may be right. That the response to criticism is not to rebuff and try and play it off, but to consider the truth of the matter. You are weak. We all are weak. Those of us that accept that we are weak can become strong. You need to accept that you are weak.
Leave us for a while, and try to learn about yourself. Try to change yourself.
Get help. I am serious when I say this. Go get help. Get a dedicated professional to talk to you. Open up with them. Be as honest as you can humanly be. Do not deceive, do not cheat. This alone is hard for you to accomplish, but you will never get better unless you accept that you do not always need to lie, cheat, and steal to get ahead. Learn about yourself, better yourself, and return a better person. Prove everyone who mocked you in this thread wrong by evolving into someone who is a genuinely good person.
However, if all of this thread is just another scheme by you to get pity, then go fuck yourself.